Wednesday, November 11, 2009 @ 11/11/2009
Mixed Feelings?
I also have feelings.
Ya i do miss and love u believe it anot...
Only i know it myself ba.
But now ure giving me the so-called hotcold treatment?
I MISS YOU! I REALLY DO!
But im afraid of u been unhappy and crying.
Thats why when u told me to leave u alone, i forced myself to do it.
In ur last post, u told me u just want to be alone.
At first, i couldn't do it, but when i thought of ur unhappiness,
guess i just forced myself by then.
U say i dun give a fk about ur msg?
Hahs u were not by my side at then so dun comment on it if u nv saw anything=)
I was just so happy when u send me the wander ard msg.
I just wanted to ask u wher were u then and asked for meet up,
but when i thought about u saying u wanting to be alone,
i had no choice?
Just imagine if u were me and the person u love say he/she wants to be alone?
U think i felt happy when i 好不容易 de send u the heckcare msg?
U know i nearly cried even though i was working when i force myself to send u that msg?
So dun say i dun give a fk damn about u and ur msgs if
u nv saw anything ya =)
Nth to reply? Lol more like im jammed?
When u say u miss me i just thought that there might be a glimmer of hope.
Yet i know i must harden myself and leave u alone so as not to cause u
any unhappiness...
Did i make the wrong choice? I dk...
Then its u who did not reply me not i duncare u?
All i can say is bii i still have deep feelings for u now and even
in the future no matter what happens.
Thats why im willing to do anything for u.
I know when i say/type all these u might not believe me ya.
But i just know that when i type all these im just saying
what my heart feels.
Given a choice, i will choose to pei ni dao 天长地久 haiz.
I believe He will be looking over u but
i had also choose to follow Him in believing that loving u is the right choice for me
and hence will be looking aft u if i can ya.
Lastly, i have been saying this for a long time
but i wun change it:
If u need me, im just a distance away frm u watching u,
i will be there for u.
Try not to cry anymore ok Muacks x3
I dk if u still will feel fan gan when u see this post
but i meant all i say in this post de.
Loves you bii, i miss yous and all the times i spent with u x3~
K luh shall post what i been doing le. Dk uh i this few day just really moodless. Smiling infront of ppl acting happy has become part of my life le =)
Hmm went for work as usual for rcd. Bored coz dead as usual. But im used to it hahas coz gives me more chance to think things over alone ya =) Served VIP 1 ytd they were ok ar. End up some of my customers frens came and overall work was ok for me luh. Well my collegues jio-ed me to Ah ken's birthday charlet but i didn't want to as i didn have the mood ya =)
So aft work ya, wanted go walkwalk ard town but remembered my promise so decided to take transport hme. Slpt all the way on transport as i was tired physically and mentally le. End up something stupid happen to me when i was walking hme -.- Was crossing the road slppily then didn saw a car coming. Abit jammed when the car honk at me and nearly chua sai zzz. Heng i jump aside but end up my ankle tio sprained uh -.- Hahas stupid right? Then limped all the way bck hme on lappy jiu slp dao afew hrs ago awake.
Ok luh if i continue post i will think alot de, think alot i will sot de. Hope bii is well and safe uh. Im going dwnstairs walkwalk stone awhile =) Ltr still got work but i tmr off uh ^^ Sry about the wordy part on top again peeps~
Promises Aren't Meant To Be Broken~
