Tuesday, November 10, 2009 @ 11/10/2009
Shaq Plus 心酸 =)
Bii i saw ur blog.
Surprisely i felt no tears only more saddness ba.
Guess i cried enuff earlier by the river =)
Past jiu shi past ba..
What i care is the present and future.
And bii ur blog... I really dk how to say about it.
Just that... I know u these few days been very moody as alot things happened to u.
So ya... Im really sry if these few days im not there for u
And i dun mean for all these to happen...
I left u alone becoz u have requested for it.
Im willing to listen to u but i have feelings too.
When u wrote this post did u think how i feel if i see this?
Did u think about how i feel when i see ur post about all this moodless alone and down shyt yet i could not pei u just becoz u ask me not to?
U always say its about me me and me.
I admit sometimes i just miss u too much
but all the while im always concerned about ur happiness.
What about all our promises and words to each other?
Can all this be casted aside just becoz u want to give it all up?
I dk ba. Im just really feeling down now. Cried also cried le.
Becoz of ur one give up we suppose to act as if we had nth between us?
If u can do it i suppose thats good for u but i can tell u bii
I CANT!!!
I changed becoz of u and yet u just think that aft u changed me u can just throw me aside ba =)
When i went to the river there alone u think i like it?
Im just worried ure alone and if u need someone pei
i will be nearby for u
but from ur post u say dao like u dunneed me, instead u are dependable more ur frens.
Guess to u,im nth but a useless trash which u can throw easily.
If not all these wuldn happen...
But all i can say is, my feelings to u didn and will nv change.
I dk why but im seriously in love with u.
U say u dunneed guys and love, well i guess i can just watch over u frm a distance,
hoping u will be happy without me ard.
Can see that when ure with others ure much more happier? I dk ba...
Then u say i bo tell u i go nana? u urself nv told me u were at evo?
If u msg me telling me ure there, u think i want to go nana?
I guess u just dunwant me ard?
At least i tried to tell u by posting in my blog asap. But
i by now then know u went to evo when i go nana lol abit joke ba...
I just want to know what happen to all our promises?
Maybe u can just cast it all aside with just one give up
but i cant ya?
When u see this bii, i just hope u dun think im blaming u, i have always love u
and maybe thats just alot misunderstandings between us ba.
All i just want is a chance to 好好爱你.
I will always rmb all our promises and times together, good or bad.
I just want u always by my side. Its all up to u.
I love u bii x3
Ok i guess i can start on my blog now lol!
Hmm went to work today as usual. Nth much, dead as usual uh -.- but heng Manfred, a customer who was always gam with me came and took VIP 3. He and his frens keep make me ta courvoisier so its not that boring lolol. He even gave me a $10 tips uh. Then VIP 4 also gave me food also so... i was well-fed LOL. Then aft manfred left, another group of customers who took his place at VIP 3 also gave me a $10 tip. So ytd quite ok luh but guess im just always alone ba. Smiling on the outside,
hurt and pain on the inside ba =)
So aft work, msg bii but end up she also pushing me away so as i miss her alots, i took east side transport over to Kallang Bahru river there.. So i spent my times slacking there slack dao think of bii and cried -.- Then jiu tired le fall aslp on the bench covered with my jacket as its was kanpua cold -.- Keep shivering and just fall into a uncomfortable slp on the bench dao morning 7am. Aft that walked ard Kallang Bahru as im still moodless.
Bii as i walked ard ur hse area, memories of all our times just flowed bck to me...
I just seriously miss u alots,
especially just now.
Just remembered how im always with u, slacked, smoke and waited for the bus or cab together at the bus stop area.
Then also remembered how we went to market eat afew times. Haiz...
Whatever luh, just rmb alot of our times together...
Really miss die u BII!
So, bus-ed and train-ed hme at 8am plus as i was tired. Rch hme on lappy till now. Want toh alr x.x Ok at nite i will be working again so i want stone abit now =) Sry abit wordy peeps~
Promises Aren't Meant To Be Broken~
